Hello, this is Pooh-san.
The other day, I tweeted the following:
— ぷーさん (@poohfinance) May 20, 2023
“This week, amidst a series of overtime work, I pondered the purpose of why I’m working. I feel a stronger desire to move for my own sake rather than just fulfilling tasks assigned by others. I started thinking that focusing on side jobs and taking steps towards starting my own business might be necessary from now on.”
Last week, I happened to have a string of overtime work, which made me question why I’m working long hours as an employee.
Of course, it’s for the company, the clients, and the team, but I felt that there are many limitations when it comes to accomplishing tasks assigned by others and indirectly contributing.
Even if I believe I’m giving 100% performance, it often appears inadequate from the perspective of others.
There are also times when I have to do things I’m not good at or when poor organizational dynamics make work suddenly feel like a burden.
Are there limits to working as an employee?
Especially considering my experience working in various companies, I started thinking that I might not be the type of person who is easily recognized and appreciated as an employee.
My communication skills are inadequate, and I lack assertiveness.
When told to “communicate in this way” or “be more assertive,” I immediately shrink back and, in fact, become more reserved.
In other words, the concept of “the ideal employee” is extremely burdensome for me.
While it may not be a big deal for many people, there are aspects that I find challenging.
If achieving what is expected of an employee proves difficult, I realized that I need to reevaluate my way of working.
My ideal way of working
When I think about my ideal way of working, the first thing that comes to mind is “working silently by myself.”
Being undisturbed, choosing the work I enjoy, and earning as much as I want. That’s the ideal picture.
There’s a term called “solo entrepreneurship,” and I also thought about running my own company as the sole employee.
In fact, I have met individuals who run their own companies by themselves, so I was once again reminded that I would like to work in a similar manner.
At the moment, what seems possible for me is to properly develop and expand my information sharing through this blog.
If I can make this activity sustainable as a side job, I believe it will bring me closer to my ideal vision.
Developing the ability to earn on my own
Until recently, I have been focusing on acquiring qualifications that would contribute to my career development. However, I now want to shift towards developing the ability to earn on my own.
Obtaining qualifications serves the purpose of gaining specialized knowledge, of course, but it can also be seen as something to include on resumes and use for self-presentation during interviews.
While it’s important to join a good company, considering that I lack confidence as an employee, I realized the need to develop the ability to earn on my own.
I want to make side jobs a significant part of my life’s work. That’s what I’ve decided.
I’m planning to change my values and mindset, and continue living each day with a new perspective.
I’m still in the process of exploring life as Pooh-san.
Until next time.